Lives Transformed
It feels like so long since I last posted but in reality it's been less than a month.
I think this has to have been my craziest month ever though... so much has happened and is still happening. I have felt despair, anger, elation, frustration, exhaustion, peace... such conflicting emotions; and God has been teaching me what it really means to sacrifice my comfort.
It started about 3 weeks ago now when my housemate and good friend was admitted to hospital with a brain tumour, and our lives have been transformed since then... stuff that only happens in movies is happening to us. Headaches turn into brain tumours... living in and out of the hospital... how does that work it's not real life surely... but the thing is it is real life. We were never promised that life would be easy but often it comes as a surprise when we experience difficult times.
When we were first finding out what was going on I was quite angry and frustrated ... why was all this happening now, things were going so well in Cambridge, me and my housemates were really having an impact on people around us, we were doing well in our courses and life was just so good... but then I remembered something I released to God this summer... I released my 'comfortable life' to God and said use me however, yet when some of my comforts are taken from me I start to question him... how easy I forget. Anyway the situation with my housemate is still not back to normal... she went back home to N. Ireland and is in and out of hospital there and the doctors still don't know what's going on properly. But God is doing amazing things through this situation, so many people we knew as a house have started going to church with us, and really thinking so much more about what a Christian is, relating this to their lives ... it's totally crazy. As for the rest of it we're learning to trust God more in this situation give it to him, learning what it means to have joy in hard times. So much to learn, but such hard things to learn.
Meanwhile I have actually taught some lessons now... even a drama one by myself. Am so lucky to be in the school that I am in... there's so much oppourtunity for dance and the kids are really good kids. Am loving getting the chance to be able to get in there chat to the kids, teach some lessons, make resources... am even getting to learn how to do some editing of dvd's as they have amazing equipment at school. This course is hard work, which isn't helped by what's going on with my housemate but it's challenging and growing me, and that is something I need very much.
I think this has to have been my craziest month ever though... so much has happened and is still happening. I have felt despair, anger, elation, frustration, exhaustion, peace... such conflicting emotions; and God has been teaching me what it really means to sacrifice my comfort.
It started about 3 weeks ago now when my housemate and good friend was admitted to hospital with a brain tumour, and our lives have been transformed since then... stuff that only happens in movies is happening to us. Headaches turn into brain tumours... living in and out of the hospital... how does that work it's not real life surely... but the thing is it is real life. We were never promised that life would be easy but often it comes as a surprise when we experience difficult times.
When we were first finding out what was going on I was quite angry and frustrated ... why was all this happening now, things were going so well in Cambridge, me and my housemates were really having an impact on people around us, we were doing well in our courses and life was just so good... but then I remembered something I released to God this summer... I released my 'comfortable life' to God and said use me however, yet when some of my comforts are taken from me I start to question him... how easy I forget. Anyway the situation with my housemate is still not back to normal... she went back home to N. Ireland and is in and out of hospital there and the doctors still don't know what's going on properly. But God is doing amazing things through this situation, so many people we knew as a house have started going to church with us, and really thinking so much more about what a Christian is, relating this to their lives ... it's totally crazy. As for the rest of it we're learning to trust God more in this situation give it to him, learning what it means to have joy in hard times. So much to learn, but such hard things to learn.
Meanwhile I have actually taught some lessons now... even a drama one by myself. Am so lucky to be in the school that I am in... there's so much oppourtunity for dance and the kids are really good kids. Am loving getting the chance to be able to get in there chat to the kids, teach some lessons, make resources... am even getting to learn how to do some editing of dvd's as they have amazing equipment at school. This course is hard work, which isn't helped by what's going on with my housemate but it's challenging and growing me, and that is something I need very much.
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love you lots!
Wow, sounds like a tough situation hun, I'm so sorry about your friend.... Will pray lots. It really makes me think about how I take the luxuries I have for granted. How amazing tho that God has used this for some good, even though I understand it sucks.
Thinking of you, give me call some time if you need cheering up, or just to chat. Lots of love,
Eemmma x x