Busyness
Sometimes I feel like I'm too busy.
At school I find myself teaching pretty much twice what other trainees are teaching ... yet I would rather teach than observe.
Tuesday is my only free night of the week, and that normally gets filled somehow.
There's so much stuff I want to start doing on top of what I'm doing already... but when??
I still need to apply for jobs for next year (in Hong Kong), but that keeps getting pushed back even though it's really important.
My house is so noisy nowadays, so cannot lesson plan or relax in peace.
Sometimes I am so irrational, I make myself busy by doing lots of things ... and then complain that I am busy.
When I am tired, that's when the devil gets in, that's when I say horrible things, complain, get angry, become more selfish etc, etc, etc
But right now the house is quiet... I can begin to feel myself relax.... to really recognise God's presence... to feel myself beginning to be restored.
I love the peace and silence. It is not wrong to come to God and find rest in him... in fact he commands us to do so.
I need discernment over what I should and shouldn't do. I need to be more patient. There is so much I need but what it comes down to is that I need God. And not only that I need him all the time.
At school I find myself teaching pretty much twice what other trainees are teaching ... yet I would rather teach than observe.
Tuesday is my only free night of the week, and that normally gets filled somehow.
There's so much stuff I want to start doing on top of what I'm doing already... but when??
I still need to apply for jobs for next year (in Hong Kong), but that keeps getting pushed back even though it's really important.
My house is so noisy nowadays, so cannot lesson plan or relax in peace.
Sometimes I am so irrational, I make myself busy by doing lots of things ... and then complain that I am busy.
When I am tired, that's when the devil gets in, that's when I say horrible things, complain, get angry, become more selfish etc, etc, etc
But right now the house is quiet... I can begin to feel myself relax.... to really recognise God's presence... to feel myself beginning to be restored.
I love the peace and silence. It is not wrong to come to God and find rest in him... in fact he commands us to do so.
I need discernment over what I should and shouldn't do. I need to be more patient. There is so much I need but what it comes down to is that I need God. And not only that I need him all the time.
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