Remembering
Reflecting on the news about the missing Air Asia plane I was thinking how I can't begin to imagine how the friends and family of those on the plane must be feeling. How horrific it must be.... And then I realised that actually yes I can imagine how they are feeling. In fact exactly 10 years ago I was in a very similar situation.
Sat waiting to hear news of my family. Scouring every news article and news report about the Tsunami that I could find. Constantly refreshing my inbox and double checking my phone. Bouncing between despair and numbness ....
No one had heard from them for the two days that had passed since the disaster had occurred.... and we wouldn't hear that they were okay for another couple of days. So yes I can imagine and it was horrible and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.... my prayers are with them.
And yet from that situation after years of running and building walls between God and I ..... I finally reached out and realised I needed Him. My desire to encounter Him in that moment was the first step of climbing out the deep pit of depression and anorexia that I was in at that point in my life.
And so I also know that even when we can't see life in a situation, when every eventuality seems hopeless, somehow God can work and somehow He can bring life.
Sat waiting to hear news of my family. Scouring every news article and news report about the Tsunami that I could find. Constantly refreshing my inbox and double checking my phone. Bouncing between despair and numbness ....
No one had heard from them for the two days that had passed since the disaster had occurred.... and we wouldn't hear that they were okay for another couple of days. So yes I can imagine and it was horrible and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.... my prayers are with them.
And yet from that situation after years of running and building walls between God and I ..... I finally reached out and realised I needed Him. My desire to encounter Him in that moment was the first step of climbing out the deep pit of depression and anorexia that I was in at that point in my life.
And so I also know that even when we can't see life in a situation, when every eventuality seems hopeless, somehow God can work and somehow He can bring life.
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