Re-Focusing
Last Saturday at 180 God really spoke to me ... it's been a while since I was 'broken' in the way that I was that night ... a while since i've been that vulnerable and cried like that cos of something God spoke to me ... too long. It's not that I was going away from God so much just that I was always in control. When Derek spoke about breakthrough at thirst I was like yeah I want breakthrough ... but at that point i'm not sure that I wanted to be broken. Last saturday though that's what happened. Derek spoke about being in our culture and challenging it .... and I realised that's what my blog title is all about ... and that's what one of my 'life verses' says to me .... yet sometimes i'm sooo bad at it. It reminded me that this is one thing that no matter how hard I try I can't succeed at in my own strength ... it's one thing I have to rely on God for .... that I don't rely on God cos it's something that I SHOULD do but because it's something that I NEED to do. This week has been tough and I've felt quite stressed at times but it's been good too. I realise that stuff like piano, and dance and writing that I gave up .... I want to do these things again.
And yeah as I prepare to go back to England in just over a week I feel more focused, more ready for it ...
However lah so excited about next week ... Disney.... Junk trip ...=)
And yeah as I prepare to go back to England in just over a week I feel more focused, more ready for it ...
However lah so excited about next week ... Disney.... Junk trip ...=)
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It's so cool you have this blog so I can keep up to date with your news while you're so far away....!
Your blog has really challenged me too to think about the ways in which I try and take control of my own life, and not let God have His perfect way compeltely with my life. I'll be praying for you about that stuff :-). If you could pray for me too that would be awesome - moving back home Sunday, excited about it, but also feeling bit overwhelmed by the responsability of it. Not like it's a burden, just a bit scared...! But I'll be OK.
Love you loads, enjoy Disney!!!! (you know how much I love it! Dan liked the Paris one, no surprises there!) Rita Rita. Oh and by the way we haven't sung Blessed be your name for a few weeks now....!
Love Eeemmmmma
xxxxx
O i'm writing a list of the songs i like from church and i've missed off blessed be your name! :P
Well, me and God have been having little chats, but I have to say atm I've been concentrating on pulling out staples and staying sane...Maybe this so boring and unchallenging job is challenging me more than i think, quite often i'll be sitting at my desk and suddenly start singing: yesterday it was thank you for the cross and before that it was you are worthy. Been going to my old church and the speaker on sunday was great, she talked about being full of grace in all we do, and to be honest I have been more graceful in the way i act recently. Although I'm still as clumsy as ever and my legs are covered in bruises...yuck!
I'm off to France today with James and his family :D Quite excited.
Congrats on your 2.1s :D I am well happy for you! and Jemma, hope you have lots of success in finding a job. Big up the cambridge massive i'm coming to visit :D
Anyway I should get on :)
Love you
Helen xxxx
Gabby it's been so great to be able to hang out with you this month and I will miss you lots ... hope the weekend is good for you=)